I'd like to think the best of me is still hiding up my sleeve.

Okay so random post time:

-I haven't posted here, @ hitRECord.org or Youtube in like idk two and a half months altogether total haha. Just got busy and stuff. But it feels so peaceful to sit here and write a note out.

-Up there you see a banner called "Scripped"... it's because that's a new community I am a part of, Scripped.com. I learned about this in Creative Screenwriting magazine a couple months ago... then forgot to check it out. Well like 2 weeks ago I went back to that specific issue reading about Scott Pilgrim and saw the ad and then remembered!

-So now i'm there working on scripts!!! It is great because I get to learn the mechanics of script writing hands-on not just in my screenwriting books ^_^ So I'm editting my first ever script The Courtier (or Serlyng and the Courtier Spirit) that I posted here a while ago. + I am writing an original script that I always ment to write but never did, its to spring board this new script I need to write for a project I am doing with my friends.

-So that's all cool and stuff. The project I am referring to stated out as a hitRECord collab but it has since blown up into something more. I can't wait to have it done cuz i really need to write a script, get a voice actor then creat the slideshow and BOOM! the project is finished =] I took the pix 3 weeks ago on a beautiful Sunday afternoon and my friends were so awesome about it! Praying to get this project to stage2 soon so i can show something. Basically its a story that has evolved into a tale about a guy who wants to accept his son but struggles with his feelings about it and deals with inner turmoil over it. The audience gets to see snapshots of what the guy is voicing. The shots show a what he is going thru, but symbolically, like hitmen tracking a Mark. I think the finshed loom will be really awesome, if I could just hurry up haha...!!!!!

-Work. New manager is real nice. Still wanna new job. Not looking forward to going there tomorrow. But still thankful for God providing $$$

-School is cool. Interpersonal Speech class is my fav. Met a cute girl first day, wrote speeches about each other, read em with the rest of the class on due day. Her's rocked and still inspires me everytime I read it, and it motivates me to be the best ME there is! Her closest childhood pal nabbed her heart before I could make a even a feeble move lol but it was cool, seems he's a real standup guy, plus she may consider a trusted friendtype associate so I can accept that. Business Writing class is cool. Astronomy was boring, still sorta is but the prof is getting better as he goes a long, seems it is his first ever time teaching so, its cool I guess haha.

-Ironically I just mentioned a girl. Well i am ready to be who God designed me to be. Given my history with relating to other people + the opposite sex I know now that it is better and more expedient to listen after what I know God is guiding me to do, than to try to make something happen for myself. I no longer care for a significant other juuuust because sum1 else has one or even if I am bombarded with romance at every turn, which has been the case before. At the same time I am not Pro-single or anything i am not trying to stay single per se. I am... well, I am that I am, to quote my Heavenly Father lol. I just am... Josiah. Never had a girlfriend and that is fine with me and clearly fine with her, whoever that is. I am a man who's God has a master plan. At the start, and end of the day... a girlfriend is sum1 I would be happy to say is a special friend, sum1 i chose, not sum wall, or event that just befell me or that i ran into one day. Or, a hot commodity to have cuz every1 else is doing it. People are people. So when God takes me to that frontier of dating, for real this time, i'll be ready. If it isn't time, it isn't time. I have too much going for me to waste time and energy and I am ready to grow up for once. I will be defined by all god provieds for me. Not what he held back from me, less that should glorify him, seriously now. I have a choice, and I choose to choose to grow up about all of this.

-House M.D. season 7 is gonna flippin rock! It just will, i am more excited for that than Smallville for God's sake haha! Can't wait to see where the team is gonna take House, and House and Cuddy and every1.

-Smallville final season, 10, is gonna be legendary! Nuff said.

-Oh yeah Fringe season 3 is gonna be so dope, plus JJ Abrams' new show Undercovers looks great, well done Boris Kodjoe!

Alright that's it for the random post, readers, off to bed and i am stranglely reminded to finish reading Superman New Krypton vol. 1 and I Am Legend.

Peace out all!

FIN

=/ + ^_^ = NEW VIDEO!

So i'm back after a few weeks abscense(sp?)... thig is i didin't expect my latest blog to be slightly a downer lol =/ Ironically today was a good day at work. i wasn't over worked, tho not a lot of people showed up. Thing is a lady came thru today wearing a black T that had something to do with film production but i can't remember what it said now. Naturally that caught my attention. I was going to ask her about it but who could have guessed SHE HAD LEFT HER FREAKIN' $$$ IN HER CAR?!?!?!

So basically I couldn't talk to the lady about it and it bummed me out. So much so that I wrote A LOT MORE about it a few minutes ago but my connection got messed up or something and all that was left was the above part of the original blog!!!!!!!!! O_O Hah yeah, basically I was taking a moment to have a pity party and then when I began to write more about trusting God I switched gears and uploaded the latest video I had intended to post anyway, which I'm about to upload for the second time lol. I made it Sunday night and posted it on youtube but the music was muted cuz of a copyright issue. i'm hoping that will change soon. So here it is HELIOS featuring music by MUTEMATH!


I;m not sure what to do about the copyright thing at youtube so we'll see what happends. thank God for more outlets than what the tube can provide tho right?

I'm sure you recognize a lot of those photos from a previous post (Cellphone Pix!). But I was just listening to MuteMath Sunday and suddenly God gave me this idea to just do a montage of photos to "Stare At the Sun" and light and stuff is my favorite photographic subject anyway and I already had these pix so it all just worked out lol.

I hope to do another one, but untill then enjoy this video and I'll talk to you later.

Peace out!

FIN

Ehh... persevering...recovering... a sliver of hope...

So I've been working A LOT... ok simply more than I used to, like one extra day. Thing is I work in the mornings now, 7am and I'm not used to getting up early, like at dawn maybe idk lol everyday. Welcome to adulthood right?

Lately work has been testing me, situations, stressful, between-a-rock-and-a-hardplace type situations, managers yelling and lecturing situations. Situations where your limits are tested... where you just want to hit somebody and leave destruciton in your wake.

Well today was one of those days.

It was supposed to be a "whatever" day really because in my head I'd been working my tail off all week and all the excitement this week was all centered on a big catering event today anway. But like a million employees were called in today, I of course was one of them but it wasn't really a big deal... until later.

Basically i got overwhelmed with some orders and ppl got stressed out and before you knew it everyhting had gone to Pot.

Thing is... I know where I could have done better and how I could have avoided the mess, but sometimes the craziness of work just sweeps you out to sea, if you will. But I know that that doesn't have to happen, it was just a bad patch. It just sucked. The day before something like this happend to another employee too :-/ And it didn't help that someone thought I was refusing help to gt out of that bad spot quick and in a hurry... made me look profoundly irresponsible so that pissed me off too >_< ... but its ok I'm cool with her all the time and she was just crazy confused like me and the PRESSURE was on like Donkey Kong.

One of my managers told me its never any[one's] fault and that we gotta focus and support one another and be aware when things start to get "tight". So I wasn't really in trouble at all it seems but I still feel a little crappy.

Its funny though because things at work... environmentally... or maybe just mentally... have been so weird. People have quit, had disputes with leadership, resources haven't been pooled efectively and sometimes the store goes without in times of great need (not to sound so dramatic)... its just been pretty distressing lately.

A lot of workers seem fed up to. I think that's why some have quit... some of the things were understandable others not so much. Its like some weight has been breaking the backs of us at work and ppl are throwing up their hands in surrender, poppin' off and takin' off. And I've def felt that way but something has been holding me back. But the temptaion doesn't go away but its infecting every1. Like ever1 feels they aren't protected or being taken care of so they take what they feel is theirs or has been denied them and then proceed dramatically out the nearest exit.

And treating others right is one of our cornerstones!

And sometimes I feel really confused. Like sometimes i feel like "what has my job done for me lately"... like I feel really selfish sometimes and others its like I'm bending over backwards to help others put myself 2nd. Ppl know I try to serve others and that I try to be respectful and nice and just a regular guy... no drama. But I've been tempted lately to just go off! And that stresses me out even more... supressing it all and directign it elsewhere. I mean one time I was so like vexed and pissed off at someone I was shaking... and at first I thought I was scared of them and their next remark... then I realized I was scared of how i might react and that scared me even more.

So when I was informed that I'd bet getting of work almost 2hrs early I was out of there. I went straight to Borders to unwind and, breezed thru the Kick-Ass comic. The [one thing] I took away from that book was to keep on getting up no matter how hard you're knocked down. Period. Just get up.

And then I was reminded of IPeter 4:19, "So those who suffer according to God's will should commit themselves to their faithful Creator and continue to do good."

Continue to do good.

That gives me a little comfort. If my Heavenly Father is protecting me thru the barrage of stress and revealing what i'm really made of underneath it all then I know I'll learn what to do in these tight spots. I'll admit it right now I've learned VERY slowly that its ok to keep my cool and get thru to resolution when things get really bad. Thing is i know what i am capable of. I know what I can do and its better than most think, and those who have thought of it tell me so, few of em but they see all the same.

So I'm gonna stick it out hold on tight to God's leg thru this storm and see what's on the other side.

Pray for me cuz I'm diving back in.

Later.

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIm baaaaaaaaack =P

So it's been a year right lol? Yeah it's tough to keep up with these things but I'm back with plenty to write about I think.

I just put up a Twitter account: boiKing101

I used to think it was dumb... even tho I only have like one friend of mine Following me on it, its cool to just spout ideas. I guess that's why it's used to liberally then right? No matter, doesn't apply to me... well by libereally I meant derogatorially...

Comic book talk: Gail Simone will soon be back writing Birds of Prey again. I don't know of any other big name female writers and I'm kinda familiar with the BoP so that helps. I want to get on the band wagon when it hits stands in few months.

-And also War of the Supermen comes at us in June and I can't wait for that. If only I could get to the comic book store more ... its ok I'll find a way lol. Superman is my favorite super hero!

I'm a lil rusty as far as posting up these pix it seems lol.

TV talk: So last's night's episode of SMALLVILLE titled "Checkmate" was good, cinematography-wise definitly! The opening and ending scenes were reminiscent of Zack Snyder's slo-mo techniques as my best friend put it. This show is really steppin it's game up! and so is Clark's wardrobe its seems, none of the same blue tshirt and red jacket anymore... and tha flannel xD! Plus Smallville's been renewed for a 10th season!

-Also ROYAL PAINS will be back in June!!! Great show, USA network puts out some great television, the humor, budding relaitonships, taking life into your own hand's inspiration is great to see in these characters, and Hank Lawson is no exception. I can't want to see how he and his bro Evan get their $$$ mack from dear old dad who left the family when they were boys.

-Hugh Laurie makes his directorial debut this Monday on HOUSE, but mostly I'm glad the 2 week hiatus is over cause i love this show!

-FRINGE's last two episodes were great, seeing how it all began with Peter dying as a boy and Dr. Bishop going to "earth2" and taking that universe's Peter in order to cure him of the same disease was a lot of fun. I didn't know Nina Sharp lost her arm in the portal to the other side! And the use of retro sci-fi graphic designs in the opening credits and the locations were a nice touch. I can't wait to see how the season is going to end and what this means for the War.

-HUMAN TARGET is great! Period. I can't wait for the finale, though I think there are like three other episodes I have missed in the past "Run", "Santuary" and "Lockdown" of which I can probably find online ;]... and speaking of the past, how it comes back again to kick Chance in the pants this Wednesday night is gonna be worth the wait.

-And finally IN PLAIN SIGHT is back and I really want to see if Mary is really gonna make a life with Raph, which i think would work, good guy, isn't scared off by her job. Or if there really is anything to the quote/unquote secret crush ever1 says she and Marsharll share. But I'm glad to see these two buddies back at it again giving ppl second chances at life. It was cool seeing Mark Walbergh's (sp?) brother on the show in the first episode. I hear the writers may cut back on Mary's home life tho and focus more on her job and on her and Marshall. i admit I'm not sure how much of that I'm going to like cuz her homelife really adds to the show... but we'll see what happends.

Life talk: Ok, i'm finishing up my final math at community college. Working hard at work lol,ossibly a raise in my future. God's working on my relationships and family, guiding me. I'm exercising a lot or what feels like a lot of patience latlely. Things happening that are stressful and I either break under the pressure or get through it with a new perspective. David has been an inspiration in scripture about getting through trials and things especially when you are innocent or just trying to do your best. But life is hard on you for doing good. IPeter chapter 3 has been encouraging me to continue to do good and to suffer under God's hand instead of against his hand.

Who the heck knows what that must feel like, really?!

And I started reading this book called Celebrating Decipline. The author, Richard J. Foster is talking about meditating on the promises, testimony, goodness and grace of God in my life somewhere in chapter 2 right now, so that's new and interesting.

My status on facebook is that my spirit is chillin' right now and i aim to keep it that way for a while.

Ok going out with the family now sop this post needs to end. Gonna try out that new tire I and my brother installed a second ago.

Later!