Today (after getting thru today) i was moved to just reflect on my life....
i accept God's definition of me...
i write this where anybody could see it cuz frankly i don't think anybody cares enuff... but those that do care are the ones who live similar experiences...
...bcuz God is a good God...
he's my father...
even tho soon enuff i'll have something happen durring my day that is really stressfull and makes me question what i kno... i kno that i don't have to do anything to be what and who God designed me to be....
( lol the irony :inside joke:)
im trying to recall a passage in the bible ... ah well Romans chapter 8 talking the sons of God follow his Holy Spirit... i think that will sufice.
Big Pops, i thank u that i can thank u in a freakin' blog hahaha, and u know what? Say "lol" when i feel like laughin as i typed that i did right then even tho no1 knos if i really laughed or found anything sincerely funny right then...
okay that's kinda annoying doing that (srry readers =P), really tho: God i am glad that your Comforting Spirit found me ready, when you decided i was ready to accept identity as well as citizenship in your culture, the culture of a holy nation, one that will live on.... that would have always lived on no matter Original Sin or Adam and Eve... your desire was always to love me and becuz it is ur definition of urself to love others, to even sacrifce ur life if it need be just to see me again and make sure nothing would ever separate me from u, short of my own self-disqualification.
God forbid.
i thank u for the grace to hear of ur Lifestyle and to see it...
i thank u for faith... and for the support of ur Holy Spirit to believe in the identity, the word, the purpose u put on my heart that defines me and secures me in your family life.
i am so happy that i don't have to struggle anymore to be who i want to be and to be who u kno me to be or who my family knows me to be...
i thank u, u, that even as my best friend (My Fortress of Solitude) knos me, how i tick, what u dislike, what i aspire to be... like my own dad!
u kno me
thank you that even when this life intimidates me, challnges me, beats on me sometimes... like all who have ever tangibly(sp?) supported me and helped me thru u have done exaclty the same even tho u are invisible
i kno u are invisible becuz i ignore u sometimes, bcuz others ignore u, forget the good u have done, the love u have given, taken u for granted, behaved ungratefully...
but when u called me and i just couldnt fight u anymore or argure why i was right and u were wrong or any of that...
u were plain as DAY
i love you Pops. you're a great God and provider the best support and protection any1 could ask for. and i am glad u answered when i did ask.
thank u once again for 21 years on this earth and thank u for being my friend
i guess i could have titled this post "Thank U" but i think a smile will sufice...
^_^
Peace out!
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