In the Merry, Merry month of MAY!

So my favorite month is drawing to a close, I'm kinda bummed. May is just a great month! It's not even my birthday month, but it just the last point of Spring before Summer, even though my midmonth it already feels like Summer lol. It's a beautiful month and I find myself staring at the blue sky, the white clouds and bright sun. It's a great time of the year.

A LOT has happened this May, 2011. Smallville ended, Oprah ended, I graduated from junior college, I have worked at my first ever job for 5 years now, Superman renounced his U.S. citizenship in the comic books, I got over childhood crap and chose to not hold back the brilliance that is my own normal self... and today I uploaded a new piece of the my short film series The Aviators!

Ya know even as I write I feel the whole month going through my mind and I just have so much to write but it's hardto get it all out and on the page. Maybe I should do vlogs too here and there? Anyway there's just so much self-discovery and achievement around me this month, at this time in my life; it's a little overwhelming. Things are going better and better for my godmother's play too! She has a new director now! We're gonna do script readings at festivals and hold fundraisers and everything, its pretty awesome. Plus the original comic book my best friend and I are working on about fullfilling one's dreams is going very well and we'll be scripting the first issue soon.

There's a lot to be happy about and I am gradually learning skills to keep myself in the zone God wants me to be in if I'm going to succeed.

Destiny has been on my mind, heavily the past month. The day I graduated, my dad and I just took a drive and talked about everything I had learned while attending junior college, and even stuff back on my 21st birthday. I so want to see what God is going to do with me, how he'll order my steps and who I'll become...

But I am enjoying the journey, and not holding back what makes me who I am is great, it's like having a super power. And that's awesome because I LOVE super heroes! Speaking of, I'm thinking of collaborating with my dad on an original comic I've been working on for like 5+ years now. I think his experiences would be perfect for the whole book and especially the main character.

And I had left The Aviators (yeah it's "the" now) alone for a while there. I had been struggling with the story, it's direction and execution. I had envisioned one story and it seemed good. I was scripting directions like crazy and it was awesome! But something still wasn't clicking and it was so hard to explain it to people. I wanted to get into short films but I heard that making them as "economical" as possible is THE way to go. Simplcity is arely out of style. Funny thing is the production of the movies has so far never been the issue, just the story. But thanks to some time off from the scripts, some personal growth as well as growth in my craft I think I have a simpler direction to pursue. And the characters may be able to remain more or less how they are!

My next challenge with the movies will be probably to get some original music because using other's music is great becasue I listen to so much music and the themes are already set. But uploading the movies to public domains can be tough. But God hasn't left me out to dry so far, someone or something will present itself soon enough I'm sure and The Aviators will be better for it.

I mentioned self-discovery. As you can read in my profile description I'm named after a king, Josiah... well I'm named after two; my middle name is David. Simply, sometimes we forget that God uses simple things that stick with you all of your life to tell you who you are. Thing is David preceeded Josiah by several decades. David was known as a man after God's own heart. The thing I like about David is no matter what happened to him, good or bad, he clung to God, the King of Kings. David had this tenacity that I loved and have in life. I think it's what made him the perfect candidate to return the Ark of Promise back to the city of Jerusalem (which his son Solomon would one day install in the new Tabernacle). David stuck with God like a best friend, like someone he actually needed to always be in his life and when it mattered the most, he helped make that happen for his entire community. That is what I wanna be!

Finally, Josiah. He started to rule in the 3rd grade! Later in his reign he discovered the Book of the Law God had given to Moses. It may have come from the Ark because the Tabernacle had been destroyed or needed serious work after the days of David came to a close. After David, a lot of bad stuff happened and customs never found in Israel sprang up like weeds (pardon the cliche). Problem is these customs didn't cause Israel to flourish at all. Where people called on God for provision and protection they sought out alien and pagan dieties and cuustoms instead. Things like child sacrifices went down among other things and God and the new king od Israel had had enough. Josiah and one of the few remaining righteous priests of God promised to renovate the Tabernacle and uproot every shrine and temple built to honor pagan gods. And that's just what they did. In those days they were nicknamed "High Places" and some of them may have been kinda like the pyramids of Egypt and Maya. Not to diss those cultures, I say that to mean the pagan shrines in Israel may ahve been just as impressive. Anyway I feel that God has always made me privy to these "High Places" in the hearts people, these sacred cows we think will provide and protect us but don't. There just some ways of thinking we devise and assert will get us ahead, soemtimes even ahead of God or with him! But they turn out to be dead works, things that don't really fulfill us or cause the increase in anyone else's life. This, despite how imperfect I am, I feel i have been and can't imagine being any other way.

So I feel that God is showing me more and more how to carry his personality and zest for life like David and keep in good condition the place of rest he has made for me like Josiah. I know pretty much everyone will accomplish this, but how is another story. I think in my personality, my family, friends, writing and other aspirations and such, I'll make these things a reality for whomever God brings my way; freely give, freely receive.

All of this makes me so HAPPY! This reflection and accepting what my life has become. The Household of saints in my life have further encouraged me to be freely who God is showing me to be. A lot of the accomplishments in my life or wi have in my life seem contingent on just being me: necessities, film school, good job, true love, good friends, skills, all of it. I guess it's like Jesus said about making security in the Kingdom of Heaven top priority and everything else will follow. I guess I didn't realize it would be so... like this. i'm used to hearing "do this" and "do that" and read the Bible and go to church and be all of this traditional christian stuff. Sometimes I just didn't know who to be Josiah. I didn't know Jesus really meant it that way. I didn't realize freedom meant this, free to be me as I sense God is making a way for me to be. I know there's gonna be days that epically fail, I might experience close-calls and tragedy but I don't think God wants me to avoid those things, if they happen. You know who there is stuff to avoid and you do just that: aviod them? Well I remember now that God still let's other crap happen and when they happen, there's no avoiding them.

Like Job in the Bible.

So, I guess I'm going through life with whatever God arranges and sets before me. HIs borders for me as he told Jabez. Whatever lot he gives me, like the good stewards in Matthew (chapters 7, 13 or 25 I think?) I will invest and reap an increase and not look into anything else but what he puts in my face at the time, in my face and on my plate.

The Holy Spirit in my human spirit is all for it, but I'll be patient since my soul still struggles, been so used to being indepent and trusting God. I desire to be dependent on his wisdom and just breathe my soul in it when God says so. That way no tug-of-war. Hopefully I have another 22 years to learn how to do that... and many more months of May and times like how I feel about this month in store.

"Whatever my lot thou has taught me to say: It is well, it is well with my soul."
[Horatio G. Spafford]

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